No Robot Girl.
2 WEEKS. I've been traveling with my sister and boyfriend for the past two weeks (I'm writing this mid-August, 2017) and it couldn't have been a better way to bring my summer break to a close. These past few months have been a whirlwind of crazy (the good kind). I feel like I've done so much, from traveling, to making major progress building my business, to spending time with people who I love, to gaining experience after experience like its my job or something! I've never been busier or felt more productive while also feeling completely and totally free to do what I want.
For such a long time I trapped myself in this imaginary box that made it impossible to be fully creative. I followed the path carefully, trying to avoid anything or anyone who might sway me from the direction I was going. In high school I was fully focused on college. During the first two and a half years of college I was determined to graduate with a degree in a field that would be a solid foundation to make $$$. I thought I was following my heart because I was terrified to admit that I might be turning into society's robot girl. I'm no robot girl. It took me SO long to swallow my pride and admit that I was lying to myself about my dreams and goals. To be completely honest, I don't find joy in $$$. Not to say I don't enjoy some of the finer things in life, c'mon lets all just admit it. I'd down for the occasional pedicure, don't pretend you're not. However my actual joy comes from who I'm with and where I am. I don't need a shiny car (seriously, mine is the opposite of shiny you should see it... actually no, you should definitely NOT see it) or a huge house. I don't want a hundred pairs of shoes. Who knows if I end up becoming mega blessed financially maybe I'll roll with an extra pair of shoes but that's not where my heart is. I was so miserable sitting in science labs and competing with other students for GPAs and acceptance into special programs. If that's for you then seriously GO YOU!! You are absolutely one very special person and I hope you find all the joy in the world pursuing what you love.
As for me, I want to be able to travel, working off of my laptop and through my camera with the love of my life by my side doing what he loves as well. I want to inhale new air every so often and swim in different seas. I dream of waking up one morning to the smell of a salty ocean, and the next morning to the sight of clouds below me because I'm at the top of a mountain, and the next to the taste of a different culture that I otherwise would have never met. I can't do any of that from a city that I'm chained to because of my "job." I wish the status quo could dissipate into a million tiny pieces of society color ash so that everyone could see that the institution we're brought up in has no control over us.
Maybe then we just might start dreaming the dreams we were too afraid to dream before. Maybe then we won't have to stop dreaming when we wake up.